I Rant...

Good Morning/Afternoon All. I feel (inhale) rejuvenated (and exhale). Ok, maybe I'm getting a bit ahead of myself. I have nothing to look forward to at work but oddly enough I feel like I've had a healthy helping of sleep and a side order of attitude adjustment.
I don't know what's gotten into me but I have to say I think it's reality. My head is always in the clouds. Most of the time I know what's going on in the real world but I usually I end up thinking of wonderful outcomes to situations I know will not fix themselves.
A customer just informed me how wrong it is that I received a promotion but am still at my old position. Made me a little feel sick to my stomach but, whatcha gonna do. I'm tired of belly aching about the same things. I thought about the logic I dispensed to my boss about this situation is useless because I'm still going to obligated to deal with being the receptionist for the time being.

Other things I've thought about this morning are...Irons. I was ironing my shirt when I see this huge black steak on the collar (I'm attempting not to look like a complete vagrant). I was pissed. I didn't know where it came from. I look at the bottom of my iron and there it was! Black gue all over the bottom of my iron. I suspect who had a hand ruining my iron but I can't confirm so I won't point any accusatory fingers. Anyway I shrug my shoulders and say "screw it". I scratched off the black stuff and keep it moving. Onto bigger things like the rain... Why do I feel like I live in Seattle instead of NYC? NO MORE RAIN DAMN IT! <--- nothing else to say on this subject...guess it wasn't that big of an issue after all. There are other subjects that i woud love to ramble on about though i'm question my own sanity right now. Whatever, if I can't rant here where can i rant? People on cell phones (i know everyone has something to say about this). If your on the train and your about to go underground pls don't start yelling "hello, hellooo, can you hear me?" No fuckers they can't hear you, YOUR UNDERGROUND!

Ok, that's it for now but don't fret i will be back soon to continue my bitching and complaining.

In Addition...

I was so pissed off this morning that my pimples burst on their own! I didn't even think that was possible. Yes i am and adult and i do have acne. I already tried a bunch of shit to clear it. Some of it worked but i truely feel that this place has got it in for me.

Although i'm moaning and groaning now, i've made it my business to get the hell outta dodge. I'm focused and nothing will stop me!

I HATE THIS FUCKING JOB

All blogging on other subjects have come to a grinding halt. I hate my job. Why should I be different from the millions of other lackeys that hate their place of employment? Well...I'm not. But these fucking bastards have just let the last straw fall on this camels back!

This morning I was informed that I will NOT be receiving my raise until there is a replacement for my position (receptionist/slave). Great...I'll be waiting for the end of the fucking century until someone is in enough despair to say "hey, I know I'll be miserable but fuck it I need to feed my family". I swore I wouldn't stay here too but, I saw promise. God I must have been out of my mind. I actually got too comfortable. It was convenient. So now not only do I have to wait for a replacement to get my raise but I also have to wait to actually get my position because someone else may not like the one given to them or he might not get the job done like they want it.

FUCK I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE. I was so upset this morning I walked out for a min cause I thought I was going to blow up into tiny pieces. Actually I thought I was going to scream so loud in Larry's face (owner) that he would have blown up into little tiny pieces.
I don't know how to feel anymore. I mean do I look like a dumbass? Scratch that, I must look like a dumbass because I agreed to wait for someone else to fit into a position in order to get a "promotion". What was I thinking? Even now I don't want to let my family down but, I really don't think I can make it here much longer. I don't want to stay here and my job search doesn't seem to be going very well. But I have to say I don't feel like I am of any value here. Every time I look at the big picture I can't find myself.

I just had a very brief talk with "Da Man". He's going to continue to keep me down while he collects his $$$ millions $$$.

Larry: Be patient

Me: Look how long it took for you to give me an "opportunity". I only got this supposed opportunity because I talked to you about not wanting to be stagnant in a position that didn't challenge me or interest me anymore. I only want to be given a chance for advancement and show that I'm worth the chance.

Larry:Well we are trying to give you that opportunity but you have to be patient. I understand that you have been and you've made changes that we have asked of you but this all takes time.


Yea well I don't have time to get my dick sucked every time I go up there. So FUCK HIM AND FUCK PEARLGREEN. I better not be asked to do anything that isn't in my fucking job description cause they aren't going to like the answer. I'm tired of putting out the fucking welcome mat. I don't care if I get a fucking minimum wage job. I'M FUCKING OUTTA HERE!

Quiters Never Win and Winners Never Quit... Who ever made up this shitty cliche' never finshed anything!

Short rant for all of you out there in blog land.

People that can't hack it (shit in general) always say that they aren't "quitters". They ALWAYS quit though they have just proclaimed that they wouldn't! What's to prove anyway? If you can't do something don't blame it on someone else, realize that you lack that capability or skill to complete certain tasks in life. For instance if your a new receptionist and you aren't quite getting things right, don't get mad and blame others or say that you are not being allowed enough time to "get it". Pls understand that not everyone can multi task, speak correct english, or answer a phone call without the person on the other end calling back and making a remark like..oh, i thought you were closed today! Pls understand that not everyone is cut out to actually sit in a seat and WORK! Pls understand that someone speaking about you in spanish is not considered VODOO (was she serious?)by any means but that whatever is being said about you is not for your listening pleasure. Ok now on to the drain bamaged asshole that hired the "poor girl". He's...I am at a lose for words. He is simply incapable us understanding that someone with an accent couldn't possiblly be a great receptionist like he wants because NO ONE UNDERSTANDS HER AND SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ANYONE!

Damn it! I'm gonna be doomed at this position 4ever! Pleeeease let me find a new job soon.

Greatful for what?

I know i have more than others and i should be "greatful" but, i swear i need to move from the squalor i call home. As soon as i step on my block my stomach beings to ache and i want to cry. My neighborhood is neither good or bad. Every year we have to add a diffrent name up on the blank wall that keeps being painted over to "honor and remember" another dumbass that didn't know how to keep himself out of trouble. Kids are rude, disrespectful and on their own. I feel bad that they don't have parents like I did. Even the most permissive parents where still better than the babies that are raising babies now. I'm always warning my grandma that one day one of these kids are gonna throw a rock at her head and that will be that. (long story...too long to get into)

Anyway, the conditions of the neiborhood are no better. Garbage strewn everwhere. Tenants throwing dirty diapers out of windows...I mean WTF is there not a garbage can in your house? I'm sure it's just too difficult to get to it. BASTARDS! Everybody complains and bitches about how dirty everything is and how we live in the ghetto, but it doesn't have to be that way. If you don't like it don't contribute and things will get better. The more people keep there garbage in the garbage can the cleaner our sourroundings will be...DUUHHHH!

Another thing, why the fuck can't bitches keep there there skanky asses in clothes that is appropriate? Why in the world does the 47yr old spanish mom with 5 kids think she looks good enough to wear a red belly shirt and spandex...IN YELLOW! The bitch has "banastas" (spanish and i don't even know if that's a real word but, it's saggy ass lovehandles on the side of your waist). Her kids are running like wild animals in the street about to get run over by some idiot that is driving waaaay too fast on a residencial street. He doesn't give a shit if he runs someone over or not... he just got a new car and he just has to show off how fast it goes. Mean while there is some poor unsuspecting woman that is loaded with groceries and is about to be mauled by the leader of the "Lord of the Flies". Then his fat ass inappropriatly dressed welfare recipant mom has the nerve to yell at the hard working lady just trying to get home in one piece! Bastards!

There is soooo much going wrong. Why can't they see? Why can't they understand that working is good and that education is important. Use your damn brains people, make something of yourselves other than the images that the news and "da man" want everyone to see. OK, my rant is over.

Crack Kills

Ok, people are just fucking out of there minds. I have a co-worker who is ALWAYS out of his seat. It doesn't matter how busy it is, he's up! Today as there was a monsoon coming down from the heavens; this man is outside looking at DVD's. :o/ WTF! SIT THE FUCK DOWN AND AT LEAST ACT LIKE YOUR DOING SOME WORK.

Why in the world do people think that when you get to work it's time to socialize? A chat here and there is ok. But, having an hour long conversation about how somebody's husband is and asshole and someone's wife is a bitch really shouldn't be the topic of conversation the moment you walk in the door. Is it so difficult to actually get some work done b/4 you order breakfast for the whole office? For crying out loud, if your mouth is full of food pls oh pls don't answer the phone. Another thing...why do the people that smoke have a smoke break but the people that don't sit their asses at their desk and pick up the slack for the living chimney's. I don't smoke or have a car but it seems that if you have either you get to have an abundance of breaks that you weren't allowed to take in the first place but are taking it anyway!

Then of course there are the rumor mills that are always a churnin' in this place. I just wanna disappear. I hate people and I hate people that I work with even more (Glenda you know your not part of this clan). Personally I think people should only talk when they have something really important to say or if they're dying. Ok, maybe you should talk at other times too but damn does everyone really have so much to say... Haven't they ever heard the saying, SILENCE IS GOLDEN.

DAMN IT TO HELL!

I HAT THE FUCKING FUCKERS AT THE TOP. (Yes, the bastards at my job). I was approached with an opportunity for "advancement". These bastards come at me and say "We want stooly 1 to go out in the field and see customers. We want you to cover for him. If stooly 1 likes the sales position then you (stooly 2) will get the position!" Sounds great for me doesn't it! Adavancement contingent on whether or not someone else likes their new position. Bastards. It's funny cause they even tried to make it seem like they were doing me a favor by telling me this. I swear i have to get the fuck outta her as soon as possible.
I am going to take the position but, only because it comes with a raise and they wont take it away if I have to return to the most coveted position in all of the land....RECEPTIONIST. Great now i'm gonna have to work with No Balls! AND THE HITS JUST KEEP ON COMING.